'Small' update

Sorry for any one who read my last post and thought I went off the deep end and killed myself due to the lack of posting...obviously that's not true as Christine and John can attest that I have been in school. I finially got that stupid project done, because I spent 38 hours without sleeping, and taking a 1/2 day of being 'sick' on the day it was due so I could get the damn thing done. I am now working on a show 'Oliver' and Christine and John are both in said show with me. I was casted as Dr. Grimwig, and I have some lines...but I have not memorized all of the lines, and I have to have a British accent and I was asking Christine for help on my lines and accent. She has been a very big help to me, not only play wise but also allowing and reminding me to laugh more. John has also reminded and allowed me to laugh more. I am now trying to switch classes so I can graduate on time and not have to go to summer school and it has not been working out like I thought it would. Also I haven't done any homework in two of my classes and I'm now failing two classes on the first day if a new semester. Yay! (For those who don't know, that was sarcasm). And speaking of not doing work I still haven't done my homework for tomorrow...my life sucks. In respect to the cutting, I haven't cut in quite a while but I can tell that the cravings and urge to cut are very strong...it scares me that I won't be able to control it nor be able to hid it if I cut again. College applications have not been sent or filled out, and as much as I want to go to college this fall and not take a year off, I'm afraid I will have to do just that. It would not be a bad choice as I haven't applied anywhere and I have no way to pay for college, well I could work the local corner by the gay dance club in town and...no bad idea! I already had one scare with a condom breaking I don't need that to happen again. (PS check my other blog for a post in the near future about that experience if you want to, again Christine and John don't read as you are not 18 years of age or older...but I have no control over the fact that the internet is for everyone). Once again I let my mind wonder and this post got longer then I thoughts it would. Again thank you to those that have continued to read my blog and I promise I will try to update it more often, but I'm only human.