Making some BIG changes

Hi, long time no see...or talk. Or would it be post? Anyways, I've made some BIG changes as the title would imply.

 I declared a major in college, criminal justice; and if I continue that field of study at my current university, I'll look into going into the probation/parole work for juveniles. However I am thinking of changing universities, and would be forced to change my major. The university I would transfer to does not have a criminal justice major (rather they offer it as a minor), so I would choose political science which is pre-law, and then I would go into law school.

But now as I think about doing this, I realized that I wasted 2 years between taking classes that I didn't and do no need, and failing/withdrawing from to many classes. Plus my federal loans are almost maxed out. I'll only get help for 6 years worth of school, and I'm in my 3rd year, with 2 more to go at my current university. If I transfer, I'll probably add 3 years and run out of funding. This is something that I want to do; be able to help and make a change in the lives of those that need help!

I guess my friends and coworkers were able to notice it before I did. I was upset and things were bothering me, and they kept asking what was wrong. I shrugged it off, and said nothing, because I couldn't tell them when I didn't know fully myself. I've cut again. 3 years clean and things just got to me, and I did it. I feel so ashamed and weak that I fell that low again. It was only one time and I haven't done it since, so I guess that counts for something. I've also made an appointment with a therapist, again. It's been about 3 years as well since I last spoke with her. Hopefully she can help and get me moving on the right path once more.

I have also decided to go back to church. I've only attended at holidays and for special events like weddings, or funerals. But with tomorrow being Ash Wednesday, and the start of Lent, I decided to use this time as a way  to start and rebuild my life in a more wholesome, respectable "not ashamed of what I do" manner. I'll attend Church services, fast like normal (no meat on Ash Wednesday, Fridays during Lent, and Good Friday), pray the Rosary everyday, and give up certain things; not only to break the habit, but to make a positive impact on my health, both mental and physical.

I guess I'll try and update or post more frequently, but like usual, not promises. I've also thought about taking down this blog and using Wattpad as it's new platform. I use and frequent that much more then Blogger.